Road Reflections

Selected Writings

Loquacious Lake Superior
© January 31, 2010 William Tecku

         You can walk all over me, but that don’t make you Jesus.  Cold enough for ya?  You can drive your truck across me, do donuts with it on me (when they ain’t bitin’ and you get bored), and your buddies can park their fishin’ shacks on me, this time of year, but all that put together and MORE don’t mean you’re gonna limit out today or any day soon, for that matter.
          But, I bet that ain’t what you told your son an hour ago when you said somethin’ like, “Come on . . . come on . . . wake up, WAKE UP!  You said you wanted to go fishin’ Remember?  Remember . . .?”
         So, daddy, is ten below COLD ENOUGH FOR YA?  Why you jiggin’ your bait so hard like it’s a nut you can’t make grab onto the first thread of a nearly stripped blot?  Think you might be tryin’ too hard?  Does this sort of remind you of that cute, little clerk in town who won’t give you even one, lousy crumb of hope to nibble on about when they might be callin’ you back to work?
         Guess the Packers got something like revenge this season.  Still, when the Vikings choked in the playoffs that didn’t mean Green Bay . . .
          . . . DON’T! . . .  Don’t take your eye off those two tip ups!
Your boy is only ten.  Don’t expect him to always know THE SECOND there’s a fish on-even if you dropped your lines right in front of your pick up so he could watch the tip ups and stay warm in the cab with the dog. 
         Even in the dark from the bottom of my St. Louis Bay, I see your beard’s icin’ up.  Better break out your second thermos!  I see keepers down here you won’t even get a chance to lie about catchin’ or ALMOST reelin’ out of me for another six months or so.  Through my two feet of ice I see you better than those pan fish you’re prayin’ you catch.  You’re keeping an eye on your lines, but your mind is tipped up on top of those lines of chimney smoke threadin’ straight up over West Duluth.
         You’re fishin’ for your supper.  You’re thinkin’ the only thing that was true on the news last night is how COLD it is this morning!
         There you go again starin’ at your lines but not watchin’ ‘em, not really.  You’re suppose to be bringin’ home the bacon or at least the fish, and there you are hunched over me worrin’ whether the economy is gonna flip you from the fryin’ pan into the fire.  You’ve already been gutted – like almost everybody ice fishin’ out here this morning - well, at least your wallets have been pretty much bled out.
         But, damn it, I see in your red, frownin’, frosted face that you’re hangin’ on as hard as a weighed anchor.  Your wife sees it!  Your son sees it!  Just ‘cause you don’t see it so well these days, don’t mean it ain’t there at the bottom of you.  
         The minnow-minded sharks on shore and their talkin’ head tools on Fox don’t want you to see that side of yourself.  They’re bettin’ big bucks that you’ll take their bait that it’s all Obama’s fault, that it’s all the dems’ fault if you don’t get back to work by next hunting season.  What the hell - we both know they’d blame Farve’s signin’ with the Vikings and the sinkin’ of the Edmonds Fitzgerald on the President and his party if they thought they could get away with it.  They figure the times have got you  shakin’ in your Sorels so bad that you’re gonna reel in yourself and hand’em the fillet knife . . . again.
         LOOK! . . . You took your eye off that second tip up and NOW! You’ve got a FISH ON!!  Can’t you hear your son tappin’ on the windshield?  Even the dog’s barkin’ about it! GOOD! You hear’em!  Man, you ought to listen to your wife sometimes, really (and I don’t just mean about lettin’ her drive home nights after your pool league.)  She says your son, sometimes, almost out fishes you!
         So, buddy, when you gonna get that part welded on your boat motor?  Before you know it, the last of my ice will be out.  Before you know it, your brother-in-law will be callin’, wantin’ to go walleye fishin’.
         O.K., go ahead, start braggin’.  You FINALLY pulled your first fish of the day out of me.  Look at it floppin’ around.  Don’t let it slide back into the hole!  Go ahead and blow about it to yourself, to your boy, to your dog.
         Just look at you guys – where’s the camera? where’s THE CAMERA? - you’re all jumpin’ around on top of me like you got called back to work or somethin’.
         I’LL SHUT UP!  
         I’ll just listen to you blow about your fish awhile, blow like the wind just beginn’ to barrel down from Canada.

Salinger
© January 28, 2010 William Tecku

Yeah, you’ve read J. D.? 

He died today.

Ya think it’s gonna snow? 

It’s as cold as confusion.
The sky is gray.

They say while the sun was shinning
J. D. made his hay.
What he caught in the rye sure did pay!
He said it helped him hide
from the spotlight’s blaze,
its glowing heart of snow.

It’s as cold as a frozen rope,
and wildcards still beat treys.

Once J.D. caught his readers’ eyes
they couldn’t look away.
Like Holden, like summer snowmen,
he had to fade.

Someone once told me I should read him
for some reason
in another icicle season
that didn’t pay.

Bookmark it, baby.

J. D. died today.  

 

Waking Up in the Old Sod
from St. Francis Strikes Oil! © 2009 William Tecku

 

Who else, one-half flying and one-half landed, is waking up
in the Old Sod this morning?
“Caw! caw!” answer some crows,
just off my resort room’s deck.
As aggressive as yesteryear’s invading infantries,
they advance in their feeding
across the song green grass
only dreamers
harvest best.

In a glen asleep, cool, and wet with dew,
I sow words as fading stars
plow back into the sky.
Halfway up the far hill, a handful of golfers stretch
and joke as they prepare to take on a challenging course
and wage war within themselves.

Speculators more distant than this spectator,
amour themselves with clever cons and contracts
to better milk more of the surrounding farm land from the farmers.
Their high-rolling, market-myopic eyes
fly spreadsheets and plot maps
“as straight as the crow flies”
to the bottom line.
Like golf, it’s only a gentleman’s game.
Smiling, smiling, smiling, and calculating,
they surrender no mulligans.

I sip my first cup of Irish breakfast tea
and taste my own culpability.

Tan and white beef cattle and sheep graze fields
that corral my heart.
They keep their heads lowed
like their owners at Mass
a few kilometers away.

Like those of field or faith,
Patrick too knew how peace can come
from chewing one’s cud.
Hedge rows and rock walls etch patchwork hillsides.
These strict stretches of woven greenery and stone and time
also keep a tight rein on the bone marrow-narrow roads
that twist and turn like the history
of their travellers.

Stoic, free, and song green as the stanzas of Yeats,  
sunlight strides up sky-to-sea-to-sand-to-sod-to-soul.

The crows and golfers are gone now.

One, young robin claims their ground.
Below the surface, we both find what sustains us.

Like a race horse just before a claiming race,
the morning rears up then settles down
to ride or be ridden
by the race.

Sunshine and showers gallop all day
across this sainted island.  

Kathy at Midterm (from Overtime)

© 1985 William Tecku

 After breakfast, before you leave for work,
I hear something coming 
as clear and slow 
as the morning train.

When you come home,
I see someone with you.

The quiet page of the spare room
is rewritten by a crib.

And we know our child
will soon be born
as a baby is born
with its soul rising
in its face
suckled by tides
by moon-eyed eyes
these harvest days
when burning wood heats the house,
and your womb warms
a new world.                                

    

Walking in Space, 2001 (from Voices)
 © 2004 William Tecku

I'm taking a long, long walk in space this morning.

There goes New Deli!  Here comes the Great Wall of China!  "Susan, when you've got a job to do, and you think you might be getting too preoccupied about what might happen to you while you're doing your job, try thinking about a time when you were with some old boyfirend.  Then get back to work!"  I remember one of my first astronaut trainers calmly told me when someone in the control room heard my voice start to crack up once in the simulator.  Now, that I'm in orbit out here working on Alpha, I'd rather try remembering the parts of speech or which mutual fund Louis Rukeyser said had the most balanced tech stock exposure in the long term.

The noun.

Jim and I have so much hardware to install on Space Station Alpha, so much equipment to relocate that Mission Control, a proper noun because, although it's not a particular person, it is a particular place or thing , figures we'll set a record for time on a space walk.  "Houston, tell my mom, 'Happy birthday!'  Tell her that I'm having the time of my life!"  ("Life" is a common noun.  A noun is a person, place, thing. or idea.)  In the sentence of life, the verb is love.

The adverb.

Ahead 1,000, 000 cows and pigs and sheep are being burned in the fields of Europe because of hoof-and-mouth disease, and, behind me, Wall Street is free falling into a black hole this quarter.  I'd just get really depressed if I spent any amount of time thinking about the past when I was with one of my dumb, old boyfriends down there.  ("Now" is an adverb.  An adverb can modify a verb, an adjective, or another adverb.  How?  Where?  To what extent or when? are questions adverbs answer.)

The adjective.

I don't want to "space out" over what did or did not happen when I was young, I mean younger, and all I heard some star crazy mornings was moon talk.  ("Young" is an adjective.  An adjective is a word that modifies a noun or a pronoun.)

The verb.

Forget this once-in-a-lifetime, four-months-in-a-space-station mission!  Lovers are the ones who are really sitting on top of the world!  Because of their altitude, they can more easily cross the Pacific with one look than I can orbiting a heaven above them.  (A verb can express action or a state of being.  "Are" is a verb of being.  "Love" can be understood as a noun or as an action verb.)  In the dirt simple sentence of life the verb is love.

The preposition.

The last crew was right.  There are so many lights on earth.  "Mission Control, confirm that the Baker-Kelly-Joe cable I'm about to plug in is the right one for docking port orifice Paul-Zebra.  It just doesn't look like it's going to fit in there."  Must be spring break!  Not much on those college kids down on Lake Havasu this afternoon!  "Roger that Mission Control.  People make mistakes, not computers.  Affirmative.  The cable is fitting into its orifice just fine now."  ("Into" is a preposition.  A preposition shows the relationship between a noun or a pronoun and another word in the sentence.)

The pronoun.

Wonder if Mom blew out all the candles on her cake today?  I remember the time when we put those candles, the kind you can hardly blow out, on her cake.  She really laughed when she finally realized what we did.  ("We" is a pronoun.  Pronouns are words that can take the place of nouns or other pronouns.)

The conjunction.

There's always a storm brewing somewhere over the Atlantic.  They've blown up the last one of the Buddhas of Bamiyam.  Some of those giant statues of Buddha were carved into cliffs 200 feet high.  They were 2,000 years old and the last ones on earth.  ("And" is a conjunction.  A conjunction is a word that connects words or groups of words.)

The interjection.

The Afghan Muslim sect in power said they had to destroy the Buddha statues because if they weren't religiously good for them, then they couldn't be good for anyone.  Oh!  It's so good to know that human beings are smarter than computers.  ("Oh!" is an interjection.  An interjection expresses strong feeling or emotion.)

"Roger that, Jim.  We'll just wait awhile in the cargo bay and see if they need us to do anything else on the docking port."

I forget exactly how old the earth is.  It has so many candles burning for it.  When he turned fifty, Nick said that he was a little happier, that he was getting to be a little more tolerant, was starting to see that each day of life was a gift.  We were laughing together an December 29th.  Early New Year's Day, they found his body.  He would have given anything to see for one second what I saw at work today.  "Grief" is a common noun.

"Affirmative.  I copy that Mission Control.  We are terminating our walk."

Were we really out there for almost nine hours?  It's gonna feel so good to get out of this big, old, balloon suit!

"Thanks, Jim.  You did a heck of a job yourself!"

Everything is in motion like all the oceans we floated over today.  Everything is a still as the sun's song we sing around.  In the earth simple, complex, convoluted, capricious, comical, captivating as each newborn's first breath, serendipitous, scintillating, sweet and sour, surreal, symbotic, unshakled sentence of life the verb is love.

The Junkman Cometh (from Overtime)
 © 1985 William Tecku

             

11: 22 A.M.

Arms folded,
forever standing short
against the clock, 
the junkman studies the movement
between its hands.

The pendulum breathes connections.

The front and back of the lower encasement trim
came off Ann Clough's bed.
Her husband bought it at an auction in Iowa City
before the Civil War.
The wood framing the upper, glass door
came out of an abandon farm house near Cassville, Wisconsin,
or was that the one and three-sixteenths inch square blocks
tacked across the top, above the clockface?

"That's real nice - on the sides there,"
remarks a passerby.

"Thanks.  The case is 99.9 percent recycled waste,"
says the junkman.

The passerby marches out.

11:30 A.M. chimes the clock.

There is a decipherable

. . . ticking.


 National Geographic Covers 1985 and 2002 
                                    (from Voices) © 2004 William Tecku


"Kodak moment!  Kodak moment!"
my cousin's children from Kabul teased me,
when I told them you were coming back,
after seventeen years, to again photograph me.

I have my education, since I was a girl in school,
and, in our tent in the refugee camp
where you took pictures of me.
But, "Kodak moment . . ."
what does this mean?

Why are you again here?

To take pictures of my old woman's face?

Must American magazines have such pictures?

This I have not learned.

I have learned that your smart bombs
are as dumb as the Taliban.
Before you came to my school,
I have learned that one's eyes
are the window to one's soul.
Is this why you say so many
have looked at my face?

What can you do to make my life better?
New clothes?  No.
Money?  No.
A camera like yours?  No.

I have dreamed, during the wars,
that some day I could go to Mecca.
And it would please my husband and I
if you could help our three daughters
complete their education more than we.
These things would please us.  Yes.

What is it you ask?  Do people here say that my eyes
are as green as the green in paradise?  No.
For that you must keep looking.



 The Minneapolis Blue Boar 
 (Voices) © 2004 William Tecku

 

"We are but humble, hungry men.
We but eat the King's deer to stay strong, 
to guard what runs free in our hearts.
We will see who suppers last!"
once roared Robin Hood 
around a low campfire
deep in the shadows 
of Sherwood Forest.

Today, a waiter, uniform-ed in Lincoln green
and named "Robin," waits tables
at the Blue Boar in uptown Minneapolis.
He wears his goatee for its sales appeal,
but is watchful of its hairs.
He knows a lost hair or two in a Friar Tuck's Special
or a medium rare Maid Marrian's Delicacy
is not what the patrons are paying for!

Tonight, "Robin" tramps his theme restaurant,
reciting his rehearsed, royal greeting,
"Good evening!  Would you care for a cocktail
or glass of one of our fine house wines before dinner?"
He prays the payment will be in cash or plastic,
because sometimes a robber lets fly a check
that bounces off the bank like a rubber-tipped arrow.

The specialties of the house include:

        The Steamed Sherwood Wiener

        The Highwayman's Vegetarian Salad

        The Court Jester's Open Faced, Buffalo Sandwich

"Sir, I'll be right back with your ice water,
and remember that the Boar's Prince Phillip's Rib
is a feast fit for a king!"

Join us for our Happy Hour!
Robin marches forth in waxed wingtips,
routinely guiding watered down, "double bubble" shafts
to their easy marks.
Sold-out of chivarlry, he keeps the diners' coffee coming,
coming, coming like the sheriff's men
into pre-tourismo Sherwood Forest
until, after feasting to the hilt,
the loyal servants of the crown speak,
"Keep the change."

Punching out into an unfed evening,
"Robin" trumpets a warning blast
from his used car's horn
and steals homeward to video
inside the well-locked hollows
of another Major Oak apartment complex.

His own sheriff.

His own thief.



 Searching for Intelligent Life 
 (from Road Jazz!) © 2007 William Tecku

     

"Well, Larry, I really don't know
how to answer that question
one way or another,
even though I've been in space
and walked on the moon."

                        . . . commercial break . . . cut to . . . 

Pugilistic prophets, juicy and low cal as watermelon,
and one, orbiting pearl 
necklace the night.

Tractors . . . I-tunes . . . toxins . . .
post-high school tremors,
text-messaged
above tasseled corn,
cultivate farm boys, farm girls,
townies and tourists,
Friday night, downtown,
flying below radar,
a few beersbeersbeers
and blue jean tight dreams
rocket Rockford, Illinois.

Who are these poeple,
who arrive wet as summer dew,
love-hover, plant and harvest
heaven and hell,
and, reportedly, crash land
their gravity
here?

"Well, Buzz, thank you for sharing with us
your thoughts about aliens.



Make a Wish (from Keystones)
© 2003 William Tecku

 
 


What do we talk about?  Cars.

She roller blades up the cracked sidewalk
ahead of her bigger friends.
All the kids piling into my friend's house
through the kitchen
put the brakes on our car talk.


They, my kids included, are all her party.
She is their party balloon,
the lucky one that escaped unpopped.

"It's my birthday!  It's my birthday!!" she shouts my way.

"Happy birthday!" I say.  "Wow!  Are your eyes big!"

"I had a really fun party!" she laughs
through her seventh grade braces.
"I could have had two parties tonight," she announces.
"But my real dad said we should wait 
until this weekend, or else he'd have to pay
for two parties for me."

She talks on.  I half listen.

"He's a little low on cash right now. 
He's finishing building his house in the country. 
It was gonna be my mom's and his dream house, 
but then his new girl friend moved in there with him.
I have a really good memory.
I remember all the building we did. 
Like when my mom and I helped put up the ceilings. 
One whole weekend, we used our heads
to hold up one part of the ceiling at a time,
so my dad could screw it all up."

"You really have big eyes!" she ends up saying to me
as she carefully backs into her crowd of kids
now silently sitting around 
the living room's laughing TV.

Our kitchen talk steers back to cars.
I turn on my stool, stare at the backs of my own kids,
and make a wish.

The moon starts to break eye contact with us.

Like a lucky party balloon, he escapes higher up 
the star-candled sky.

He may be the Man in the Moon,
but, since he's not a man or a woman,
he can't make a wish.
He can only blow out 
some of the darkness.

What don't we talk about? 




A Leap of Faith
© 2005 Keystones William Tecku

 

Beings breathe IS
in a world of WAS,
whereas mighty MIGHTS are deaf
to NOW's split-second opera
ringing in our inner ears
like a dog whistle.

In a world with lips everywhere pursed with WAS,
WERE, or WILL BE, sentient beings suckle
straight shots of IS, or ARE, or AM
like a last, lone grain of rice
begged into a Buddhist begging bowl
blessed with bounty or bodacious emptiness.

Does IS whistle in the dark?

Does the ear of your eyes dawn here?

The temple bell of my TV
begs me back into my pre-recorded not live,
my pre-recorded not LIVE silence.
Feeding time is over for a moment's mouth.
Today, Yesterday declares war on Tomorrow.
Blessed are the peace makers.
Blessed are the beings who BE.

 

Trees 
(from St. Francis Strikes Oil)
© 2009 William Tecku

 


t . . . r . . . e . . . e . . . s . . .

 

Are they bending through this trunk of time?

Are they branching through these limbs of mine?

Are they sawing through our gravity?

Are they chopping through the knot of me?

 

t . . . r . . . e . . . e . . . s . . .

 

Are they listening like silent forests?

Are they talking like whispering streams?

Are they crying like winds blowing leaves?

Are they laughing like hearts leafing green?

 

t . . . r . . . e . . . e . . . s . . .

 

Are they standing for fall’s forgiveness?

Are they falling for winter’s promise?

Are they standing for springtime’s shyness?

Are they falling for summer’s oneness? 

 

t . . . r . . . e . . . e . . . s . . .

 

Are they deep-rooted in night’s nests huge?

Are they deep-rooted in dew dreams true?

Are they deep-rooted in skies of blue?

Are they deep-rooted like me in you?

 

t . . . r . . . e . . . e . . . s . . .



A Fox Tale (an excerpt from the story) 
(from Morning Stories) © 2004 William Tecku



Spooked by the camera, the deer snapped back their heads in our direction, smartly flagged up their long, trim white tails, and bounded into the woods.

“Those deer always know what’s up.  In fact, they usually know what’s up even before it goes down.  I mean they knew we’d be here this time of year and we wouldn’t be a threat to them out of season,” I explained to Mike as we sat back down to our game.  He started eyeing my queen again, and, at last, decided to move a knight in her direction.

“Dad, animals live and die according to what their instincts tell them.  Intuitions, premonitions – that’s stuff none of those animals out there have.  I had all that in psychology last semester.  Even people might not have much real psychic ability,” he told me in a voice that said he was the teacher and I was the student for a change.    

            I let my queen side step his attack before I countered, “I’m pretty sure, buddy, that some of those animals out there have a lot more on the ball than we give ’em credit for.”  Then I thought of you – you old fox! You knew the moonlight would paw through the dark green underbrush along the river until it finally camouflaged your fiery fur all the way down to its roots.  Like a chess master who anticipates move after move after move after move before he moves again, you already knew that once you moved to bed down in your den last night, the moon would rise higher and countermove you one star space at a time, three spaces forward, west across the moving sky board, and funnel its fur soft light, white as a white chess queen’s eyes, down through  pine top winds, down the trunks of white pines thick as a black bear’s chest and black as the hairs that run up your short legs.

Twice you circle-walked your thin, two-foot, eight-inch long body, crouching lower and lower with each turn to the right, until your bed of brown pine needles brushed up against your belly and you curled yourself into a ball of fur one-half your daylight size.  Before you flicked your bushy, white-tipped tail across your nose you knew the heat lightning that worked down river as a caboose for the coal train last night would move south five star spaces and the owl-eyed air, the star-watered waves, the whippoorwill’s calls would only reach your open ears six or seven more times before your eyes would close slower than a rusty, old leg trap and you would begin fox-trotting into a dream where you would track down one slow-footed rabbit after another, after another, after . . .

            Before your blood percolated sideways out of your half-shut mouth and ran twice your length down the black top road above the Eau Claire River bridge, before the last thing your scouting eyes would see would be a rabbit running for its life up the gully just across the road from where an air-colored car or truck would stop you in your tracks, you knew I would come lumbering along in my jalopy around sunrise on my way back from the bait shop where I would have made my best move of the day: a new open-face reel for my son, so we could fish together.  You foresaw that my next moves, upon seeing you stretched out in the middle of the road, would be to straddle my tires over you and pump my soft brakes until I could stop on the hillside, back down the hill, pull up my parking brake, leave the motor running and my door open, run back down the hill and lift you off of the road as quickly and carefully as I lifted my son and daughter into their mother’s arms on their first mornings on life’s road.
            Moves before moves before moves before moves before moves before moves before moonsets ago you knew I would be surprised by the warm feel of your fur, your cat-like lightness, the limpness of your carcass before the caterpillar crawl of rigor mortis began in you, your full of summer, fall-colored coat that would, with all of its hairs at once, suddenly flare up and open my eyes wider than the road when my face finally arrived less than a rabbit’s length away from you. 

            Before the sunrise started tracking down the darkness on the west river bank, you knew I would move you into my idling car that held its ground against the gravity of the heavy-hearted hillside skinned open by black top between the freshly-flowered cemetery and the town dump.  Before the day dished you up for road kill, you knew I would not let the crows and eagles breakfast on you; yet, for an instant, I would suspect that life’s road still unrolled for you, that a fire still sparked inside you, that I would think you had outfoxed me, that you were stunned but not dead, bloodied and dazed but not . . . that you would scramble up out of my cradling arms and finish your run for that damn rabbit on the other side of the road.

 

 

 

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